the champion

kelleyrae @ 2006-03-12T23:10:00

2006-03-13T04:30:23Z

I seriously just had a nervous breakdown. I dont know what is wrong with me. I just started crying and freaking out about school. I have 2 mid-terms and a paper due on tuesday. I am so confused on what the professor wants for the paper and it has to be 3-5 pages long in APA format which I have never done before, only MLA. His test is going to be so hard and the list of terms we got is so random and we have to know which words are associated with what like one of the terms is "certificate" and Im supposed to know what that applies to, not the definition, and the words are in abc order, not by chapter or section or anything so they are just scattered everywhere and to find just one frickin word i have to look through my notes, the online notes, the powerpoints, or the book so it takes like 20 minutes at least just to find one word, and there are 150, if i find it at all and if i am using it in the right way i have no idea. and of course he doesnt give the list way in advance, just got it so i am forced to cram it all in this weekend along with all the other shit i have to do. i cant stand when professors dont give the first test until way into the semester because the semester is almost over and i have no grades for the class so i have no idea what to expect. some teachers are so inconsiderate.
i got so stressed out tonight i called my sister crying to see if she could work for me from 4-7 out of my 11-7 shift and she couldnt so i cried harder and she called work for me arranging someone else to work for me and luckily things worked out. but that was so irresponsible of me to do something like that. crying and stress makes you do crazy things i guess. i fucling hate school right now.
sorry for the rambling entry, this is how i vent which i havent in a few months so i guess it was time.

kelleyrae @ 2005-11-06T23:05:00

2005-11-07T04:07:50Z

November 5, 2005:
The night me and chris moved the matress from our bed into the living room to watch pirates of the carribean on our new tv while in bed.

my life is great.

kelleyrae @ 2005-10-27T12:20:00

2005-10-27T16:32:16Z

i have so much fucking homework this weekend...it really sucks. this is halloween weekend and im bombarded. well at least ill get a little break from it all saturday night cuz im partying at andreas:)
next weekend im going to central to visit my cousin, should be fun. jenny and sarrah, if you would like to join me, just let me know. im kinda paranoid driving there alone but i might have to if they are busy.
right now im sitting in the library trying to get some homework done before my next class but this is not working because i left stuff that i need to work on in my car, which im not walking to because it would be pointless since class is in like an hour and my car is far. i know, im so smart.
im on a diet right now and im really hungry because my sandwich didnt fill me up. i want a whopper jr so bad right now, but i cant because ive been doing really good this week.
my 21st birthday is in like a month and im so excited:)
i think im gonna go over some math problems now before i take my test.

kelleyrae @ 2005-10-13T22:34:00

2005-10-14T02:35:47Z

I really enjoyed my phone conversation with jenny jean today. it was like high school:)

kelleyrae @ 2005-10-06T17:16:00

2005-10-06T21:28:17Z

i have the internet finally:)
so i am now living with chris and i love it so much. its working out great. like im on a diet right now, and he went to the store while i was at work and bought me a bunch of healthy food. hes so sweet it amazes me.

so commuting back and forth isnt as bad as i thought. i like the long ride to listen to music, its nice.
my classes are going ok, i guess. i totally failed my astronomy test, which really sucks. i guess the whole class did pretty bad though cuz he had a long talk with the class about it. so i guess i just have to study my ass off for the next one and hope for the best. i have a million projects for my women studies class, i dont even know where to begin. my math teacher is totally weird...class is optional and no homework. how this is a real math class i have no idea. hes like 75 and has been teaching for 50 yrs. i think its time to retire cuz hes obviously losing his mind.

i cant wait til halloween so i can break my diet and eat some candy:)

i want to go to a haunted house and the apple orchard really bad.

kelleyrae @ 2005-08-19T23:02:00

2005-08-20T03:02:45Z

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet persistant? thru amanda
2.~What would you do if you had never met laureljeanne? she was the first girl to talk to me when i moved here so i probably wouldnt have made a friend fast
3.~What do you honestly think of maryjanedaze? very nice girl
4.~Would or did jovigirl0129 and ablade86 go out? no and no
5.~Have you ever liked laureljaps? as a friend
6.~If jovigirl0129 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that she was very fun to live with and i love her
7.~Would okpieceofshit and bigbillman make a good couple? no
8.~Describe my_rhapsody in 3 words: beautiful,smart,funny
9.~Do you think cmuhottie8306 is hot? oh yeah
10.~Would jovigirl0129 and xxmyreleasexx make a lovely couple? no
11.~What do you think of when you see ablade86? trumpet
12.~Tell me something humiliating about bigbillman: i dunno
13.~Do you know any of wizonmynuskis's family members? yep
14.~What's jovigirl0129's favorite color? hmmm..purple?
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is giawitch? 10
16.~What would you do if le_cityboy just professed their undying love for you? say thats nice but im dating your good friend
17.~What language does jovigirl0129 speak? english
18.~Who is unsane going out with? no one at the moment
19.~Is stacy_paye a boy or a girl? girl
20.~Would jovigirl0129 and le_cityboy make a good couple? no
21.~Who do you think quietstar would be great with from this list? i dunno
22.~When was the last time you talked to cmuhottie8306? around fourth of july
23.~What is laureljaps's favorite band? beatles??
24.~Does okpieceofshit have any siblings? yes
25.~Would you ever date wizonmynuskis? if i were a guy
26.~Would you ever date my_rhapsody? if i were a guy
27.~Is quietstar single? no
28.~What is jovigirl0129's last name? saddler
29.~What is jovigirl0129's middle name? anne???
30~What is maryjanedaze's fantasy? i have no idea
31.~Where does stacy_paye live? i forgot the name of the street
32.~Would you make out with persistant? no..we're friends
33.~Are laureljeanne and wizonmynuskis best friends? no
34.~Does my_rhapsody like jovigirl0129? definitely
35.~How did you meet jovigirl0129? at college
36.~Is cmuhottie8306 older than you? yes
37.~Is xxmyreleasexx the sexiest person alive? oh yeah

kelleyrae @ 2005-08-12T18:29:00

2005-08-12T22:43:39Z

i think i am way overdue for an update. so summers almost over and i am kinda excited to start school just to see how different things are going to be for me. i will be commuting twice a week and living with chris. the drive is gonna suck but ill only have school 2 times instead of 5, so that sounds good to me. i am also excited to go back to bk, im pathetic i know. but im really sick of this boring job, even though its good money. im used to actually working at a job instead of just sitting there. while ive worked there, ive managed to read 5 harry potter books(which are enormous) and 4 more other books besides that. i need some action when im at work, even if its a pissy customer. plus i will be working with my sister, which will be cool, i guess.
i think i am ready for some fall weather because these 90 degree days are getting quite tiresome. im in the sun all day and then i just want to sleep when i get home, after my shower of course because i sweat my ass off all day. but fall weather is nice cause its cool and i love my sweatshirts.

i hope everyone is having a good summer:)

kelleyrae @ 2005-07-21T13:23:00

2005-07-21T17:23:51Z

Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: i just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what did your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye

2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....

her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead

her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition

This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she okay?
Sister: she is in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump

Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it.....

it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you

sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

and the first picture they took together

he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

it looked as if in the picture she was crying

then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday, and you know you can, i know you've all had them

kelleyrae @ 2005-06-17T12:28:00

2005-06-17T16:42:53Z

i hope everyone is having a great summer. mine could be better, im working all the time at a very boring job but thats life i guess.
my sweetie got a tooth pulled yesterday, poor thing:( hes so cute, i love him.
i saw the new batman, pretty good.
my little sister turned 16 and got a car and works at the good ole bk.
i wish i had more to say but nothing has been going on because i just work and go over to chris's, but i think im ok with that because i dont like to be busy all the time. im content with just kicking back with my christopher and watching a movie. i guess im just very laid back or you could call it being lazy.

kelleyrae @ 2005-06-02T18:54:00

2005-06-02T23:07:23Z

i thought working outside would be wonderful...i never thought of the painful sunburns that go with it. so my face gets burned like everyday even with sunblock spf 50 and the back of my legs got burnt today and it hurts sooo bad. so the first week of work was pretty boring and i didnt have much to do so chris tells his mom that i think work is boring and she tells his stepdad (my boss) so he made a list of stuff to do. boy did my job go from boring to strenuous labor. i spent 5 hours powerwashing the huge ass deck to the bathhouse and that thing was powerful and my hands are so sore its not even funny. today i spent using deck cleaner, because i guess the deck wasnt clean enough after powerwashing for 5 hours, and i got some on me and its like bleach or something and my skin is burning which probably isnt too good. so after this week is over i will have worked 44 1/2 hours since i never get a day off since there is only 2 of us pool girls. so sorry to everyone that i have not called or talked to but i dont have a life, i live at the pool basically. but...
i found out that the third girl is starting on monday so i will have a day or two off from now on which im really looking forward to.

i think im a complainer...sorry.

kelleyrae @ 2005-05-17T17:43:00

2005-05-17T21:54:28Z

i got green day tickets...im so excited! me and chris are going:)
me, chris, andrea, and brian went to the zoo today. it was the perfect day because the last time i went it was extremely too hot, but today it was cool but not cold. then we had some good food at fudruckers in royal oak. it was a fun day.
now im bored because chris had to go to work. i cant wait until i start work friday. now ill have something to do. being bored kind of sucks, especially when chris works 50 hours a week and every time i feel like calling a friend, i see on their away messages that they are busy. working will be wonderful...i say that now.
sunday was andreas bbq and i made pasta salad that was yummy. i dont usually make stuff but it was easy and good. i need to work on my cooking skills before i move in with chris since he cant cook all the time. it is nice having a boyfriend thats a cook though.

i think ill go take a nap because im exhausted. i had to get up early today which i am not used to because i am a lazy bum since school ended. but after friday i will not be a bum anymore.

kelleyrae @ 2005-04-29T13:51:00

2005-04-29T18:00:36Z

i feel wonderful about myself. ive been working out everyday this week, i hope it pays off because i really need to lose this weight.
i cant wait to start my job, i thought it would be great not working for a month but i need something to do right now, especially when chris is working. all my friends are at camp, florida, or still in school.
tonight im going to eat some lovely food at joes crab shack for my dad's birthday, which is tomorrow but we wont get a chance to go out. so after eating tonight, ill have to work out extra hard tomorrow.
for mothers day me and my sister bought these shirts from old navy that say "i love mom." cheesy i know but i think it will make her laugh.
i cant wait for andreas bbq because im gonna try to make something, which everyone knows im not a cook but im excited to try.

kelleyrae @ 2005-04-18T22:23:00

2005-04-19T02:25:49Z

CONGRATULATIONS NIKKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(I would make it bigger but i have still not figured out how to do that!)

kelleyrae @ 2005-04-18T18:02:00

2005-04-18T22:15:11Z

so this is my last week living in a dorm forever. now there is good and bad things about living in a dorm but i think i am realllly gonna miss the good things, which would be my roommates. i have been so lucky to be able to live with the most easygoing, nicest, funnest girls ever. im sad:( but i will be visiting them quite often next year i think.

so in 4 more months i will be living with chris...wow. this is a big step, in my heart i know it will work out, i hope my heart is right. i really cant see it not working out, but i still have a tiny bit of fear, which im sure is normal. i love him sooo much so it better work out:)

i need to go to the zoo people. i have a free pass, me and one other person can go for free. so once school gets out i will be calling certain people. i wish i could get everyone free but anyone is welcome to come if they are willing to pay.

kelleyrae @ 2005-04-07T23:31:00

2005-04-08T03:33:47Z

so my week has consisted of sitting in the library doing papers. I got done 2 and have 4 more to do before next friday. life is just wonderful. i cant wait until school is over, 2 more weeks. when i get home i dont start work for a month so i can relax and do what i want to do, its gonna be wonderful. im gonna start working out and going to the track to run with my sis, read for leisure, take walks, hang out, whatever the hell i want. since i was sixteen, i have not gone without working for more than a couple weeks so this is going to be heaven. plus my job wont be bad at all once i start. ill be working at a pool at chris' stepdad's work, a marina, and just checking the chemicals, pulling weeds, making sure the pool house is clean, easy stuff like that, and getting a tan in the mean time. sure beats working my ass off in hot burger king all summer, right in the middle of the day, missing the nice weather. this summer is gonna be great.

kelleyrae @ 2005-03-25T11:55:00

2005-03-25T17:04:34Z

this day better be really damn good because i have had a terrible week. ive cried too much this week. last night just topped it off...i was on my way home from school since we didnt have school today, and my tire blew out. so i had to sit on the side on 696 all by myself until my dad came and it was not in such a good area. i was terrified because it was dark out. then i spilled slurpee all over my lap while driving to chris' and my legs were pretty much numb by the time i got there so that was great. i had to wear his ugly camoulflage pants for the rest of the night.

so today im just going to take it easy and hope nothing bad comes my way. after spending nine hours in the library in one day, tests, family problems, car trouble, and slurpee trouble, im ready for a good day.

kelleyrae @ 2005-03-22T00:19:00

2005-03-22T05:21:49Z

I FUCKING HATE SCHOOL!!!

my head hurts from reading and writing and doing math and researching.

maybe im just too negative.

kelleyrae @ 2005-03-08T20:02:00

2005-03-09T01:05:24Z

i hate this damn weather and i hate being back at school. i hate parking tickets. but.............
i do love christopher a whole lot:)

kelleyrae @ 2005-03-02T12:28:00

2005-03-02T17:51:23Z

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
kelley
kel
champ

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
ilovecls66...thats it

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
caring
loving
friendly

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
im shy
my stomach
sometimes i dont know what to say when people are having trouble

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
irish
polish
welsh

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
spiders
losing my friends and family
scary movies..even though i watch them all the time

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
sleep
shower...most days
food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
slippers
doggy pajamas
blue robe

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
green day
my brother
?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
the whole green day cd

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
cooking
working out everyday
something cool..i dont know

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
trust
honesty
lots of fun moments...everything that i have:)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
truth: i love christpher
truth: i am on spring break
lie: i am in florida

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
eyes
dimples
smile

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
shots
eat foods i really dont like, which isnt that many
smoke weed or cigarettes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
watch movies
listen to music
shopping when i have money

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
eat
have sex
shower

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
elementary teacher...thats it

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
europe
disney world
hawaii

THREE KID'S NAMES:
natalie
lucy
lillian

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
go to disney world
have kids
travel outside of the country

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO DO THIS, OR ELSE...
whoever wants to

kelleyrae @ 2005-02-28T13:06:00

2005-02-28T18:15:48Z

having a good break so far..saw my friends 2 days in a row, friday was chris's birthday and we had them over and then saturday we went to andrea's to hang out and we played catch a phrase...very fun. then sunday i relaxed all day and played scrabble with my dad and brother and went to chris's. tonight i am going bowling with chris and people from his work and wednesday im going out to lunch with andrea and brian. we might go bowling again that night, depends on chris. saturday we might be going out to dinner with chris's friend and girlfriend and go to the arcade, which sounds like fun to me. so at least i am making plans this break instead of doing nothing. i could be in florida right now though. oh well, its a bummer but i know i will be going to florida again in the future, maybe more than once. i miss you sarrah and jen:)

kelleyrae @ 2005-02-14T21:08:00

2005-02-15T02:13:52Z

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!!

I dont get to see my sweetie today:( stupid school. but thats ok, we celebrated on saturday and it was really nice. he got me a stuffed bear, stuffed zebra, justin videos on dvd, the gwen stefani cd, and chocolates. hes the best:)

i wish more people would update this thing. its getting kinda boring.

i hate when people think they know you but they really dont at all and make assumptions that are way out of line:(

kelleyrae @ 2005-01-24T20:14:00

2005-01-25T01:25:39Z

i had a reallly good weekend:)
Friday i went to canada with my sweetie and andrea, brian, amanda, and sarah. it was alot of fun...my first time going. we drank and danced all night and had lots of fun. i loved it:)
saturday i went bowling with my family and chris for nikkis cheerleading fundraiser. we had lots of fun except for chris kept getting really pissed off that he couldnt bowl good. its annoying how boys think they should be good at everything. but we still had fun and it was worth driving in the foot of snow for it.
sunday i sat around and played videogames all day with nikki, ross, and my dad. then i went to chris's for awhile and came home early to go to bed cuz i had to wake up bright and early to come back to school. now its back to reality.

oh and i forgot to mention that i got a nice amount of money in the mail for my refund of a loan so now i actually have money and im sooo happy:)
who says money cant buy happiness? well it doesnt really buy my happiness but i am happy that i have it.

kelleyrae @ 2005-01-17T23:15:00

2005-01-18T04:36:38Z

i want this week to be over with so i can go to canada on friday:)i probably wont be doing alot of drinking though which sucks cuz ive never done that in canada but i dont have ANY money and i feel bad if chris is buying us both drinks all night cuz hes not made of money himself. but its ok cuz ill still have fun. lord knows i can still dance without being drunk;)
i hate money. i cant do anything without it. it depresses me when i dont have any. it sucks. oh well, i guess thats life. i just hate being broke and also owing people money.
i have so much work to do this semester and i havent done much so far. i need to get moving. i need 30 hrs of observation work in a classroom and huge projects to do for every one of my classes. i need to get organized and start preparing for them now and not procrastinate. i think im too lazy sometimes.

i feel like im getting more attached to chris, which i didnt think was possible. i miss him constantly and i hate just seeing him on the weekends. i think it was christmas break that brought this on cuz we were together everyday for 2 1/2 weeks. now its just harder to say goodbye to him every week. hes amazing, i love him so much. i cant wait to move in with him. some people think im crazy, but i dont think i am so thats ok.

kelleyrae @ 2005-01-10T18:22:00

2005-01-10T23:43:19Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREA!!!!

so my weekend went pretty well. me and chris had a wonderful evening friday night. i made us some dinner, tortellini with garlic bread, and we watched stepford wives. then saturday was andreas birthday party, i had lots of fun. i love sitting around and just talking about anything. sunday i just sat around all day.

so im back at school and i just dont feel ready yet. break was sooo nice. i got used to it. like i love going here because i have met some pretty amazing people. but sometimes i just feel like im just stuck here. i want to be able to see certain people whenever the hell i want, have a job with some hours, and be able to just go somewhere without having to walk forever just to get to my car. i dunno, maybe im just getting the winter blues cuz i recall this happening last year at the same time. i know i wouldnt change the experiences that ive had here for anything cuz i am glad i did the whole living at college thing. next year is gonna be so weird when i commute. i just hope it all works out and its not too much to handle. im sure it will be fine.
i need something to make me happy cuz i feel sad and cranky.

kelleyrae @ 2005-01-02T14:41:00

2005-01-02T19:48:43Z

so my breaks been pretty damn good and its almost over:( im gonna miss seeing chris all the time, but he has a phone now so i can talk to him whenever the hell i want so im sooo happy about that.
so my holidays went really good. i got lots of good stuff and new years was awesome. i got pretty drunk but it sucked towards the end of the night cuz i puked like a few times. i was so gone i couldnt even put my own pjs on, chris had to. i passed out before anyone else did. but it was an awesome time with my friends. i missed ya jenny<3
i dont want to go back cuz of school shit but i am happy to see my roomies!